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I have been avoiding life but I am back

I have been avoiding life all summer. I have been even more hermited than normal if that is even possible. I have hermited myself from the internet as well. I was just waiting. Waiting for school to eventually start. Well today was our first day. I am finally excited instead of just nervous. I got my new "look how fat my head looks" ID, went to lots of orientations on every possible subject about the college, and then suddenly realized how glad I am that CCA is such a small school. There are only 50 new fine arts grads. 50 is a comfortable number. Our first day was 8 hours straight which is way to long for me but at least it wont be like that everyday. So heres to school... the best reason to leave my cave.

Physical therapy

Had my first physical therapy session yesterday. This was the kind with exercises (next week is the kind with hands on work) It wasn't really what I was expecting. But I suppose that's good. I expected it to be hard in the ways I am good at. You know being strong and pushing myself aerobically on a bike or something. Instead it was hard in the ways I am not good at. Balancing, organizing my arms and legs, doing things in a pattern/rhythm, and trying to damp down/not lose control of my nerve whosey-what's-its. It was irritatingly difficult actually. It seems silly really, the whole point of PT is to improve your weaknesses not you strenghts, but hard sucks and I want to get a good grade on the test.

Neurologist

So I went to the Neurology clinic at UCSF. I was going to see Dr. Graham Glass. He came recommended by a friend who has many of the same problems I have.I was nervous having been yelled at by doctors in the past for "making up" my condition. I must say I was happily surprised. He was young, nice, generous with his time, respectful, honest, personable, and even handsome. I would absolutely recommend him to anyone looking for a movement disorder specialist. So the verdict:

Bad news: Jerks. Random jerks that we cant explain or cure or even classify. Fatigue, sensory problems, migraines, pain, the whole bit.

Good news (sort of): 20% of people who come to clinics like this one. Specialty places you have to really need to get in to. Mayo clinic type places. 20% of their patients do not fall in to a currently diagnosable or understood category. I just happen to be in that boat. Fun times. Why is that good news? I am not in the degenerative camp and I not alone.

Bad news: Because what is wrong with me is basically bad wiring in my brain/nervous system past down from my mothers side of my gene pool there is no drug to help.

Good news: Physical therapy is commonly helpful. And He wants me to try it.

Bad news: No specific name for my condiion

Good news: I fall in to the catagory Abnormal Involentary Movement Disorders (so at least I have a vague name now)

Weird looking tired picture

I was really tired. I think I look kinda crazed.